Love?

Single people. Single people who no longer want to be single. . . I have a few questions for you.   What do you want? Is it love, companionship, financial security, your ego stroked? What is it? And why is it so hard to find? Do you really, really know what it is you want and need? Or is what you want limited to someone's physical attributes? I mean seriously, how long will you settle for something that isn't what you want? Why endure the misery of settling? Are you dating just to date? Just to have something to do? Is the picture you paint of yourself on dates different from the picture you see in the mirror when you're at home, alone? What are you masking? What are you covering up? What void are you filling temporarily? What do you expect?
Single people. . . Do you know, I mean really know what you want and need? I mean, everyone wants the basic generic qualities. . . But what else do you want from someone? What can you live without? What won't you tolerate? What do you deserve? How do you know what it is you deserve? Have you ever had what you deserved?  Are you shallow? Are you materialistic?

Just a few questions I gave this morning. I'm single, so I'll be answering them as well.

In my thoughts.

Happy Valentine's Day

Lovers all over the world right now are out on dates having dinner, at a show, shopping, taking selfies, getting engaged, getting married, watching movies, loving, cuddling,  or sleeping with each other. Balloons, flowers, jewelry, clothing. . . gifts of love and passion were brought this week. People are kissing, holding hands, hugging... showing other expressions of their love or infatuation for each other. Some really love each other. Some are just in it until someone better comes along. Some just want to have someone around.

Then there are the single people. The single ones forced to watch everyone share their love day experiences everywhere they go. The single ones who have to fight to ignore the fact that they aren't participating in any of these festivities. The single ones reminiscing on a time when they could share with their love with the world. The single ones are fantasizing about future valentine's days. The single ones hanging out with their friends. The single ones at home watching TV and scrolling FB.

Me? I'm home. I've been home all day. Listening to music, scrolling FB and IG. My hair is a mess and I'm craving crab legs.  I did some daydreaming about future valentine's days with a lover. I reminisced about my last celebrated valentine's day.  I spoke on the phone for a few hours with my cousin. Made nachos. Nothing really serious about my day.

Hopefully next valentine's day will be different. Hopefully it'll be how I daydreamed earlier today.  I would like that, a lot. Until then, happy valentine's day. Love is awesome!